Tuesday, September 2, 2014

Tuesday (9/2/2014)

Update: 

After lunch on Sunday, I headed to the woods.  I really haven’t been out to the woods since early last fall prior to becoming ill which ended up with my left leg amputation.  I decided to go to the county land where I normally go hunting.  It was pleasant just going back out there where I have spent so much time enjoying nature.  I went with three goals: 1) shoot a rifle left-handed, 2) practice shooting my bow left-eyed, 3) practice walking in the woods with my boots and walking sticks.

Shooting my rifle left-handed and my bow left-eyed has been precipitated by the damage to my right retina.  I was hoping that by hunting season my eyes would have responded to the monthly treatment that I have been receiving and I could hunt normally this fall.  While my eyesight has improved, I certainly am not going to be able to hunt using my right eye like I had hoped.   The doctor hopes that my vision might be restored; but we are working so that it at least doesn’t deteriorate any further.

After decades of shooting right-handed, I knew I needed some practice just to get used to holding the rifle in my left hand.  In deer hunting, you normally only get a fleeting moment or two to recognize the target and shoot, so I was working at comfortably getting a good sight picture through the scope and quickly taking the shot.  I used my .22 mag rifle on this first outing so that I could put plenty of rounds down range for the least amount of money.  I was very pleased with the results.  I know that I will have to go out a few more times before hunting in November but I am already comfortable enough that I am certain I can do it.  I have a bolt action rifle so it is a bit awkward working the action and the hot brass tends to hit me in the chest but it is doable.  Besides the goal is always “one shot-one kill” so it should work out fine.

Now since I can’t use my right eye to aim my bow, which is a bigger challenge.  I have a right-handed bow and you can’t just switch hands with it—it is not built to be shot left-handed.  So I had three options: 1) extend the sight so that I can use my left eye while shooting with my right hand, 2) purchase a left-handed bow, or 3) purchase a crossbow with a sight.  So far I’ve elected to try option #1—shoot my current bow using my left eye (the cheapest option).  The difficulty of doing that is getting a consistent sight-picture and having everything line up the same way every time.  By shooting left-eyed and right-handed I’ve lost one of the points of reference and I have found it is difficult to get that consistent sight-picture.  That means that my shots vary widely—sometimes dead on and other times off by a foot when shooting at 20 yards.  Let’s just say that Sunday’s practice has left me with serious doubts about my ability to bow hunt in this manner.  I even lost a few arrows and my confidence was badly shaken.  Maybe with lots of practice, I might develop enough skill; but I don’t think I can pull it off this year.  Buying a left-handed bow would solve the sight-picture problem, but it would be an expensive option and I would still need to get in a lot of practice to be proficient enough to hunt.  This year Wisconsin has opened the archery season up to include crossbows, so getting a crossbow with a sight would be an option.  Once again it’s more expensive to buy a new bow but the amount of practice needed to be ready to hunt with a crossbow would be less.  All of this comes with bow season opening in only couple of weeks.  I was very discouraged on Sunday afternoon as I realized my dwindling options for bow hunting this fall.  I’ve found that being out in the woods in the fall is very cathartic for me.  I missed last year because of illness, now I find that I may miss this year as well.  That is a cruel blow to me.

Although discouraged after my bow practice, I went ahead and tried walking in the woods.  I was very pleased with how that went.  With the walking sticks I never lost my balance and I felt confident and safe.  I am certain that without the walking sticks I would have stumbled and fell at least a couple of times when I went through tall grass, over some fallen branches or went into a hidden pot-hole.  But with the sticks I didn’t have any trouble.  I do have to pay attention that the sticks themselves don’t become entangled; but walking in the woods was a success.  While I was out I heard owls hooting and heard a deer crashing through the woods—cool!

On Monday, Karen and I filled her van with things to be dumped and then got it emptied.  I did a couple of outside chores done after it stopped raining.  I took the plywood sides off of my one trailer and put them away, get some fireplace ashes left from last winter in the trash and then built a small block “patio” area for the ash cans to sit on this winter.  Karen has a lot of leftover patio blocks at her office so we had to load and tote them; but it worked well. 

Afterwards I took a short ride on my bicycle.  I haven’t ridden for over five weeks since I had to let the sore that developed on my leg heal fully.  I only rode about a mile because I didn’t want to overdo it.  It felt good to get out for a ride, but it will take some time to build back up to my 8-10 mile daily routine.

Thought for the Day:

How do you handle disappointment in your life?  It is amazing how discouraging life can be at times!  Things don’t always go as planned and it can be hard living with reality when we’ve had our heart set upon a dream.  What I have found is that often our disappointment grows in our mind so that it overwhelms all the other positives aspects of our lives.  Disappointment can cloud our view until it seems like our lives are full of only dark storm clouds and rainy, dreary days.  But is that really true?

Think of how easy it is to focus upon the thing we don’t have and we overlook all the good things that we do have.  We are like kid at Christmas who received over a dozen presents. The one toy that he wanted wasn’t one of his presents, so he is upset and sad.  A teenager may have their whole life ruined and their future destroyed because their parents didn’t buy them the pair of athletic shoes that they dreamed of (I’m be facetious here).  As an adult maybe we didn’t get the new job we applied for.  Our old job wasn’t bad; but this job would have been perfect!  We wanted it so bad we could taste it!  But now all we taste is ashes because our dreams were crushed. 

I think it is important for us to put our disappointments in perspective.  I desperately want to go bow hunting this fall—I look forward to this time every year.  But if I cannot do it my life really isn’t over and devoid of meaning is it?  No!  I have countless blessings that I am overlooking and focusing upon that one thing that seems to have denied me.  I am not saying that it doesn’t hurt and I won’t shed a tear over it; but none of us can afford to let the roadblocks on the journey of life stop us in our tracks emotionally.  The road that we have hoped to take may be blocked but we can always take another route!  Even if you encounter roadblock after roadblock, with the right attitude even a “staycation” can be as refreshing as a vacation.

I know that some of you are face some very serious setbacks and difficulties.  I am not making light of your problems and I know from personal experience how difficult facing some of them can be.  However if we are still living and breathing, we’ve got a lot to be thankful for.  Why should we concentration on the one thing that has been denied us when there are so many other positive things in our lives that we could be focused upon?

It might be appropriate to take some time to grieve over the loss we have suffered; but then it is time to get up, dry our eyes, and move on.  It doesn’t make any sense to waste a lot more time on something that we can’t change anyway.  Acknowledge the loss and then move on.

I’m wishing that every dream that you have will come true.  However, I know that in life that rarely happens.  So I hope that you can focus upon the positive things that you do have and enjoy the life that you have been given.  Go ahead and make any improvements and fulfill all the dreams that you can; but don’t let a setback or two derail your entire life.

In what is known as the great chapter of faith—Hebrews 11, the author lists all the great deeds of faith accomplished long ago.  There are many victories listed in that chapter; but there were also many, what we would call, tragic endings as well.  Both those whom we would say were victorious as well as those we would call failures lived by faith.  Some saw the blessings and victories firsthand and some had to wait and look forward to better things “someday.” 

Hebrews 11:13    “All these people were still living by faith when they died. They did not receive the things promised; they only saw them and welcomed them from a distance. And they admitted that they were aliens and strangers on earth.


Whatever you face today, whether victory or disappointment, face it with hope and trust that there will be a better day ahead.  Put your disappointments in perspective and realize that they are not the end of the world.  Once again, it is not what happens TO you that is important, as what happens IN you.  Choose how you are going to respond to the disappointments and heartbreaks in your life.  Don’t let them decide for you.  Take time to enjoy whatever the day brings you.  Be thankful for what you do have and don’t focus exclusively on what you are lacking.

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